When I'm in a rotten mood humor is probably the best remedy (more so than any advice or words of encouragement). My friends over in Lancaster put me onto Derrick Comedy this past Thursday. I'm a fan of the Jerry sketch so I've included that particular video below. However, click on to the title of this post to check out their website.
"A well-developed sense of humor is the pole that adds balance to your steps as you walk the tightrope of life." William Arthur Ward
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Don't You Hate When People Act Brand New?!
I have a very high emotional tolerance. My feelings don't get hurt often. For almost my entire life I kept people at an emotional distance so that they could never hurt me; to say I am a guarded person is an under statement. I have been very proud of myself since I've gotten to college. I've really allowed myself to open up to people and thus make some very good and genuine friends in a short amount of time. None of my current close friends and I have ever been in a serious disagreement because every time I ever got into it with one of my friends, I cut them out of my life.
I tried to express my discontent to one of my current friends and I kept feeling like they weren't understanding. To say 'I'm hurt" is impossible. (lol) So my discontent grew to passive aggressiveness. I found myself reverting to my old way of handling myself and emotionally and physically distancing myself to the point of casually saying hi and bye to someone who I used to consider one of my bff's. Last weekend I began to feel bad. If this is my bff I should be mature and value our friendship enough to work past whatever I was feeling. It's easier to be mad than to admit my feelings were hurt. I attempted to work past all the stupid ish but my "friend" was busy so I offered to stop by their dorm another day. Earlier tonight I found myself once again in the same place/same time as this individual. I approached this person with nothing but amenity however I got a cold response. Fair considering how I had been acting toward this person. However, Twice- that's two different times- I approached this person tonight trying to put my pride aside and be willing to work toward gaining my friend back. Now how is someone supposed to act when you ask someone "can we be friends again, Can we talk" and they shake their head no and literally push you the hell out the way to the point that you have to actively work to regain your balance. So what did I do? I went from saying I don't want to drink tonight to steady taking shots- I was livid.
I truly feel as though I've lost a good friend and it sucks. However, it makes me appreciate the other really close friends I still have left. I have made some great friends and you know, sometimes the people you would have done anything for prove to have the biggest man-gina and PMS worse than you... *sigh* I'm friendly with the world but shit I can't give just anybody the title of 'friend'. I have a lot of pride and I don't readily put myself out there. Can I be blamed for falling back on old habits?? I say forget this ish- whoever can't get in step with me can kiss my behind- I don't do vulnerable. Like my Stepfather says, "When I die, bury me upside down so the whole world can kiss my ass."
Now that I have blurted out all my thoughts, let me find clarity in the situation and constructively articulate "the moral of the story". This in not the first discord of this type I've been caught up in. Romantic relationships, friendships, and even family sometimes are all similar in principle. Relationships are all about meeting people half way. If another person doesn"t have enough consideration for you to put in as much effort as you, then you are left with an unbalanced relationship that is bound to thus be rocky. It's frustrating to interact with someone who you feel is less invested then you are. That is probably what is so hard about my current friend situation- my other friends have been saying from observation they don't understand how I could consider him such a good friend because he hasn't been a great friend. They have told me for a while that they believe I am undervalued in relation to this person. I don't know why I was willing to open up so quickly but because I did I don't want to give up on our friendship. (How many people can say they've so much as seen me cry?) One of the biggest signs of an unhealthy relationship is being more attached to what you've invested than what that person is adding to your life. You should have enough self respect to let go despite whatever you have invested because in life we have to cut our losses from time to time. I had a point I wanted to end on but I forgot it. I'll say this much- if I pretend I don't care about someone it's either because they aren"t worth caring about or because I'm mirroring the same sentiments I receive. I'm back on my Fabulous ish- My attitude is celibate; I don't give a F**k!
I tried to express my discontent to one of my current friends and I kept feeling like they weren't understanding. To say 'I'm hurt" is impossible. (lol) So my discontent grew to passive aggressiveness. I found myself reverting to my old way of handling myself and emotionally and physically distancing myself to the point of casually saying hi and bye to someone who I used to consider one of my bff's. Last weekend I began to feel bad. If this is my bff I should be mature and value our friendship enough to work past whatever I was feeling. It's easier to be mad than to admit my feelings were hurt. I attempted to work past all the stupid ish but my "friend" was busy so I offered to stop by their dorm another day. Earlier tonight I found myself once again in the same place/same time as this individual. I approached this person with nothing but amenity however I got a cold response. Fair considering how I had been acting toward this person. However, Twice- that's two different times- I approached this person tonight trying to put my pride aside and be willing to work toward gaining my friend back. Now how is someone supposed to act when you ask someone "can we be friends again, Can we talk" and they shake their head no and literally push you the hell out the way to the point that you have to actively work to regain your balance. So what did I do? I went from saying I don't want to drink tonight to steady taking shots- I was livid.
I truly feel as though I've lost a good friend and it sucks. However, it makes me appreciate the other really close friends I still have left. I have made some great friends and you know, sometimes the people you would have done anything for prove to have the biggest man-gina and PMS worse than you... *sigh* I'm friendly with the world but shit I can't give just anybody the title of 'friend'. I have a lot of pride and I don't readily put myself out there. Can I be blamed for falling back on old habits?? I say forget this ish- whoever can't get in step with me can kiss my behind- I don't do vulnerable. Like my Stepfather says, "When I die, bury me upside down so the whole world can kiss my ass."
Now that I have blurted out all my thoughts, let me find clarity in the situation and constructively articulate "the moral of the story". This in not the first discord of this type I've been caught up in. Romantic relationships, friendships, and even family sometimes are all similar in principle. Relationships are all about meeting people half way. If another person doesn"t have enough consideration for you to put in as much effort as you, then you are left with an unbalanced relationship that is bound to thus be rocky. It's frustrating to interact with someone who you feel is less invested then you are. That is probably what is so hard about my current friend situation- my other friends have been saying from observation they don't understand how I could consider him such a good friend because he hasn't been a great friend. They have told me for a while that they believe I am undervalued in relation to this person. I don't know why I was willing to open up so quickly but because I did I don't want to give up on our friendship. (How many people can say they've so much as seen me cry?) One of the biggest signs of an unhealthy relationship is being more attached to what you've invested than what that person is adding to your life. You should have enough self respect to let go despite whatever you have invested because in life we have to cut our losses from time to time. I had a point I wanted to end on but I forgot it. I'll say this much- if I pretend I don't care about someone it's either because they aren"t worth caring about or because I'm mirroring the same sentiments I receive. I'm back on my Fabulous ish- My attitude is celibate; I don't give a F**k!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Music: Trey Songz & Robin Thicke Ft. Nicki Minaj
I have been raving about Trey Songz for a minute now. Today my friend texted me after watching his I invented sex video to let me know she understands why now. This video is just extra sexy. Why aren't there guys like that at my school??? For your enjoyment....
I also happen to be a fan of Nicki Minaj. She is just the baddest b**ch. Luv her!! So of course I was listening to Robin Thicke's new song "Shakin' It For Daddy" which features the Harijuku Barbie when I should have been studying. Listen to it- it packs heats for sure.
I also happen to be a fan of Nicki Minaj. She is just the baddest b**ch. Luv her!! So of course I was listening to Robin Thicke's new song "Shakin' It For Daddy" which features the Harijuku Barbie when I should have been studying. Listen to it- it packs heats for sure.
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